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Molly Stearns ([personal profile] losttheright) wrote 2016-03-15 08:17 am (UTC)

Maybe Lee doesn't blame her for it, but that doesn't stop Molly from blaming herself, at least in part. She might not have asked for this any more than he did, but she's the one limiting their options now, because of her own fucked up history. If it weren't for what happened before — well, it still wouldn't be easy, and hardly ideal, but she could at least entertain the possibility of not having this baby, and be a lot more likely to be able to handle the aftermath. As it is, as awful as she feels for it, she doesn't know how she could. There's no easy way out here, no potential outcome that puts her where she really wants to be. With that being the case, all she can do is work with what she's got, and hope that, somehow, they come out of this okay.

"Yeah," she says softly, and though it sounds just a little like she's trying to convince herself of that, she's not about to argue with him now. She wants to believe it, and for the time being, that's enough. "I mean, I told you, I just want us to be okay." It's kind of a weird position to be in, realizing how much more that matters than anything else. Molly has never really been one for relationships, and certainly not as serious as this one; that's been the case for a long time now, but there have never really been other stakes. Just like it's not the time to question Lee, though, it's also not the time to shy away from this. And there's no reason why putting their relationship first in a situation like this should be a bad thing. "Or at least to know that we're going to be. Other than that, I barely know what I want, either."

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